Friday night was fun. Saturday morning is another story. I went to The Curry House for dinner with Scott. It was really good, but now Scott has the idea to eat 46g of rice under 20minutes. (A running competition at the resturant) I'll have to take pictures if he does. Then I went to TJ and Jason's room where TJ was torturing a poor lizzard with vodka. Then I went to see Love Actually (for free mind you) at the campus center. It was ok, but very sappy love movieish. B- Then I came back to my room to find TJ and Jason in it. They hung around for awhile, then Jason went to sleep. TJ however stayed around until 7am. Michelle threw shoes at him and we watched Finding Nemo. Fun was had. We were drinking vodka and Mountain Dew, which is a nice combo. I didn't listen to my stomache tho. So around 9.30am I puked. Lovely stuff.

I used to be great at getting myself out of boredom.
But then again I was six.
Rubber bands could amuse me for hours.

School is boring.

Eating ice cream makes me sick.

Sleeping gives me sore muscles.

Periods seem to last for ev er!

What to say? I don't know. Stuff.

I might go to a club Friday night. Or I might watch Love Actually on campus.

Ummm cashews are addictive, just like Cherry Garcia ice cream.

Oh and Way to go Mom! for wining $300 at the lottery. Treat yourself.

How much is insurance for a car? Roughly? (Trying to save up)

Yay chain rule. It's such a bitch.

I checked out a book about how to start your dream business.

I'm scared I'm not going to have any pills on Monday and I'm going to have to take Claritin every 4hrs, even though its completely against the directions.

Tonight Friends is on! Only 4 more episodes!

I downloaded an episode of Northern Exposure!

I'm bored.

I had a great Valentines Day!
Scott and I wen to A Taste of Sagon for dinner. It was really good!
He pulled himself out of the doghouse very well.
He surprized me by coming over to my dorm with red roses, 2 Liter bottle of Coke, and cauliflower!
(You see they only have Pepsi on campus, and I prefer Coke. And cauliflower is one of my favorite vegetables, and it is his least favorite)

Last night, Michelle and I had a really nice talk, about everything. We talked for 2 hours! Which is a lot. Not that we are unfriendly with one another, but I'm not here that much, and when I am we are both doing our own thing.

I was a walking advertisement today. I wore a sign taped to my chest, and I held ton of balloons and flowers. I was trying to sell them for the E-club. I was a bad seller. I didn't feel right going up to people pressuring them to buy stuff.

It's sooooo quiet in here! Michelle studies sooo much that I feel bad if I make a noise. She's still a wonderful roomate and all.

Okay so I admit I've been arrogent. In astronomy everything has been review so I haven't been reading or paying attention to the details, so my grades aren't as high as they should be. BUT this teacher is an ass!!! He boosts his ego at the expense of his student's educations. I don't come to class to be humilated. Does he honestly think embarrassement is the best way to encourage learning? He won't answer questions, but when he does he'll make you feel like an idiot. This is college, I didn't think that he was going to ask us what we know when we obviously don't know it. And for god sake...what kind of teacher rewards someone for not cheating, with embarrassement?

What happened to me today was this.....I've been bored out of my mind in class because it is all old news for me, but the ONE day he asks ME a question, I don't know the answer.

Thank god this school lets the students do an end of semester evaluation of the teachers! I'm am going to really let him have it! I hope he gets a good long talking to.

I find that recently I've been looking at the small picture too much and that's why I've been getting so frustrated. I think I read the same thing in Amanda's blog. I'd like to step back and look at things from the bird's eye view. It's been hard to find the time to think about anything other than "Do I have any homework?, Did I do my laundry?, Oh god I need sleep, Did I eat properly today?, Where the fuck is my keys?, I'm running late again, When will she shut up? I'm getting another pimple!"

In a week it will be a year anniversary of when Kyle broke up with me. It doesn't seem that long ago, but yet I know that I've moved so far away from where I was. (And no I don't mean just geographically....I know what all you jokester are thinking)

I need to listen to music more. Please leave suggestions of bands or songs for me to listen to! (And I'll look at Amanda's blog to see the bands that I know that she's mentioned to me, but it's kinda gone in one ear and out the other, sorry!)

I feel bad for Michelle. Everyone I know and everyone she knows won't be here next year. This place is a bus station.

Today I had one of the worse headaches I've had in years. I got up from bed and reached into my drawer to pull out a bowl. I felt something on my hand, when I looked down there was a lizzard! I screamed my head off. It was the last straw of the day and it took all of my energy. How do I explain this? I layed my head down and realized how something so insignfigant upset me so much. I guess it's happening to me because I've never been this busy before in my life. (Even though compared to some, it's not that busy) I need to become one with nature again. Sitting outside, observing or mediting outside reminds me of the beauty of life, the connectedness, and the grand scheme of things. I need to start my transcendental trail.

Ah now I remember why I have this thing....to bitch and moan.

I have a sinus headache, there is lawnmowers outside, I can NEVER catch up on sleep! I feel like the walking dead!!!!! I haven't slept in, in weeks. I haven't gone to bed before midnight in a long time. And I have to catch up on chem. I have class in an hour, then e-club meeting an hour and a half after class, then another 1.5 hrs after that I have astronomy lab till 10!!!! I still have to take a shower, eat, and do hw. Somebody shoot me!

Hmmmmm my dad hasn't written back.....I wonder what he is thinking! ( I told him about Scott)