Not much is going on in my life. And that's the problem. I'm drinking stagnate water. I've got to get out of this place, even if it's the last thing I do. Murph is dragging his heals, and he is starting to understand that he is as well. His solution is for me just to take off to Texas for 'awhile' so that I can be near my mom. I would love to be near family, but I crave moving to Alaska or backpacking through Asia. He just doesn't have this crave, and I don't understand why. How are we ever going to reconcile our feelings? I keep trying to think of compromises and middle ground, but after 9 months I'm starting to run out of ideas. Should I make the jump of following my gypsy heart and hope that he follows?

Dear Blogger,
I've missed you so much. We have shared things for years but somehow drifted apart. We should get together, maybe have a cup of coffee.
Love,
A.

Maybe I've waited long enough for people I know in the real world to forget about this blog, to begin writing in here again. If you could hear the tone in my voice when I say that inside my head, you'd understand I was being sarcastic. Anywho....
I'm not going to catch you up, because if you know me, then you already know the major things that have happened between Spring semester of last year and now.

I barely understood what Jean-Jacques Rousseau was talking about in his essay Discourse on the Origin of Inequality. I kind of think that he's an anarchist, but in a very unenlightened kind of way. Or he wants to see democracy played out the way it was suppose to go.
I find that the only things I have to talk about anymore are political things. And on top of that I have a hard time arguing one way or another because usually I'm talking to someone who knows way more than I do. And if I'm talking to someone outside of STPEC, then they don't know what I'm talking about and it all becomes a moot point anyway.

Personally I feel like I'm in limbo. I'm content here. But it's not in my usual fashion. I tend to obsess about the future. I always figured that if ever I was in limbo, I'd have tons of free time and I'd write amazing poetry or take insightful photographs. That couldn't be further from my life. Most of the time I'm hanging around with Murph or I'm so busy I can barely think. I'm taking a lot in, but I'm not really digesting.

I'm ready for a new adventure.

I just pierced my lip!!! Just a few mins ago and it feels wierd. My lip is swollen and will be for awhile. But overall I'm very happy. :) (Of course the shock hasn't worn off yet)
Pics are up on my picture page.
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/fallingcolors56/my_photos

Just because I am trying to avoid studying, I'll put this up. It's interesting, but I hate putting categories on this stuff. And the some of the questions are ambigious. So don't label me for this! But here goes....

Your political compass

Economic Left/Right: -8.88
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -7.54

Yesterday I worked my ass off on studying and writing papers. I took a break to see Murph, because he was on campus staying up late doing papers too. It ended up wondering around the student union at 2am and having his car stall out a million times trying to get back to campus from running an errand to his house. At 4am we pass out in my dorm only to wake up at 6am. He had to work at the Slutty Goose, while I worked on another paper and then worked on some sleep, to wake up to my first final. 1 quiz, 1 final, 1 big paper, 2-3 small papers,and 3 overdue homework assignments to go. Tuesday at 5pm it is all over. I might get to stay at a hotel at Dartmouth and Wednesday I'm going swing dancing!!

I will prevail!

Ok so I'll actually update.

• Moving off campus with into a friend's apt, Steph, and her roomie, Adena
• FINALS!
• Got a summer job - desk recptionist on campus
• Taking French I & II this summer
• Going to Alaska to visit Kate this summer
• Dying for summer to start
• Earthfoods: going to be on the hiring committee!
• Classes next semester: Marxian Economics, Political Economy of Women, Jr Writing or National Liberation of Africa
• Yes, still dating the Murphy boy

Alternative Spring Break pictures are up!!
When I get time I'll try to update! Just imagine stories as you look at the pictures. :)